"Don't hold it against me," said the trumpeter. "It was on purpose that you didn't hear from me. I didn't want to be in touch with you. I was afraid of what was happening inside me. I was resisting love. I wished to write you a long letter, I actually filled pages and pages, but I finally threw them all away. I was never so in love before, and it scared me. And why not admit it? I also wanted to make sure that my feelings were something other than a passing enchantment. I told myself: If I go on being like this for another month, what I'm feeling for her isn't an illusion, it's a reality"
Farewell waltz- Milan Kundera
(please read even though its a chunk of text only.it explains ALOT!)

that's how it feels now
i know people are curious (I am also) but please dont ask nowww :(
it will totally drive me insane cos i'm still thinking
i got a lot of insecurities issue to deal with so dont bother asking
i'll probably start telling people once everything is okayyy
its quite pressuring and yes i know people are curious to know who can make me forget m but give me some breathing spaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

thr are freaking so few decent guys left!
really dont like dont like dont like this cos they're freaking me out
arghhh

your text does make me day a little, even if you're two steps too slow huh
and i miss your live again.kill meeeeeeeeee! :(


p.s. B, pretty face is not the answer to everything can?!?!?! i think i asked you quite a lot of different questions alr and everytime your answer is pretty face -.- eh not counted!!!!pls think of other more creative answer thankyouverymuch.